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Hello.

Its been a while, since my last Post and drawing.

I know its not right to put it at the end of the year, but...my actual situation is not good now. Something really bad happened a week before Christmas and its seems serious this time...

I don't want really to talk about it...its not that simple and I don't want to write a long post...

To put it together...I will be gone for a while, not posting or drawing anything. I don't know how long...it could be a Half Year or an entire Year, before anything will be fixed and to solve my problems and my actual situation.

Life is not easy...especially for adults. I have a Full time job, which I hate, a Privat life and lots of hobbies. Art is one of them. This year was really good because I got my Graphic Tablet and draw many pictures this year. I am really happy and satisfied with everything I've done A couple of years ago I could only dream of to draw so many pictures...I am a little bit sad, but Life is full of Challenges...when I don't stand up, then I will not go further.

I hope you are all good. Have a Nice rest of this year and we will see in a another time.

SafDragon1

Hey everyone.

There is one mind from yesterday which won't leave my Head...I will tell you closes as possible how I actually feel and what is my statement actually.

Yesterday I read a comment from one Person here...btw.its not meant mean! Or rude...but I got a little bit demitovated from it...

I mean...I know what the person was meaning...I really love drawing or...loved in the past...you can't imagine how many pictures in the schooltime I was drawing...just for fun. I was really good and hoped I will get in a drawing school or something...but no...one person never gave me the chance :( because she says...that I have no talent...ouch...so...in one time I was stopp drawing for more then 12 years...which explains why I am drawing the same...but you have to understand, that this dragons are from my childhood past...I was never able to finish them...and I hate when I have unfinished stuff.

And now when I was enjoying drawing again...now I am asking myself: is it really worth to continue?

You have to know...that I am an adult who works in a damn boring supermarket...why? Because I didn't have a choice...and need to survive of course...and it takes me 3 years to spare on my computer and ot takes another year before I got my graphic tablet, which I got on January this year. After 15 years. Now...I am almost 30...which doesn't mean it isn't possible to learn something new...but in the adult age its more complicated because you have so many responsibilities after work...there is not much time to.learn something new...or...there it is...but limited.

And the other thing is...I am a really sensitive person. Which means...I don't like critics...no...I hate it...even if its an constructive critic...but it throw me back where I shouldn't be...it isn't mean or something...I know it was for a good reason...but know I am demotivated right know and don't know...if I want to finish my old childhood characters from my past stories...

But...I realised that I am.not the only person who makes the same pose of each picture over and over again...there are so many people put there which are making the same and still are good. And don't even say, that they aren't good. One example is my old story friend Saphira. She was my first dragon...my first character...and the way I draw her...I was already in love because this is how she looks like after this years!

So...that's all what I wanted to say...I will finish the other dragons with the same pose...and then I will start...or try...start something new.

I hope you guys understand this...thank you for the likes and comments in the past week and I will keep working. Because...thanks to you I am a little bit motivated to continue :)

SafDragon1

I tried and tried...but I failed again. Everyone was right...I am not an artist and I give up. There are many people there are better or worse then me and get more attention...

I am so down...I give up...I have no joy in life anymore.

Hey. I know. It’s all of sudden...coming out of nowhere and posting 6 pictures without even a Comment...

I am not still sure, if I have to continue drawing again. Instagram was not a bad Idea to post my Art, but...to be honest...it was a Failure, because no comments and even no likes...So a decide to return here and try again, because Deviantart is a big Platform with so many Artist. From Amateur to Professional.

I will post some older Drawing, which hangs on my Computer...I finally got after 10 years my dream Graphic Tablet and I love so bad. Finally, I got a little more Fun in Digital Art Again.

The Programs which I will use is Clip Paint Studio and GIMP 2. I will use GIMP 2 only for Backgrounds and Clip Paint Studio for the rest.

Hope you will enjoy my Posts 😊

SafDragon1

Hello everyone who is still following me and still waiting for new Art or concept from me.

Yeah...from the according title...it wasn’t an easy decision, but I will not submit any art here at my Deviantart account.

It is a very long time, that I didn’t draw or submit anything. The reasons are simple...nobody is supporting me, no one comment any of my newest arts and I am a little bit demotivated...I didn’t draw for a very long time. I discovered one thing…I don’t have any time for Traditional Art anymore...and I don’t have the technique for drawing in a short time. Yeah I have the small crepe Graphic tablet...but still...I want a bigger with a display, like an iPad. It was taking me 2 years for saving for my actually computer, that I use now. I am happy about that...but I have no patience or even the nerves, to wait another months or years, to get my Graphic Tablet...I didn’t bought anything for me...for the 2 years...and this year was a better year, than I thought. I got so many Merchandises and so many new games for my PS4 and many clothes and shoes, which I really need it because I have nothing...or not many clothes and shoes...and I was so happy to buy all these Things 😊 Only the imagination of limiting myself again...for a short time yes...but for a long time again? No...sorry...I don’t wana do that...and the other problem is...in 2 months...is Christmas...I honestly hate the Christmas times...only marketing and milking our last money from our Pockets. Sorry. My opinion. And of course, I buy some presents for my Boyfriend...he doesn’t like Christmas either, but his parents and his hall family MUST celebrate Christmas and we MUST come...did I said that I really hate Christmas?

Anyway...We all have our private lives and responsibilities…nobody will help us with that. And that’s the half of truth...The other Truth is, I hate my actually Workplace and I want change...I resigned the statement and July, but my Chef...was talked me into to stay...the thing is...I have the best chef ever and I couldn’t say no...and...I take my statement back...which I totally regret it...because it was getting worse and worse by my work...you have to know I am working in a Supermarket and I am an Introvert...well...you could imagine how stressful it is for me for even work there…

And since corina...the people are even worse and worse...no wonder, that I am every day tired and in no mood to do something...and even if I do...i got angry and tired and bored and shutting it off...and shutting myself in the room and not coming out, because I have enough of people...

It doesn’t mean, that it is the really The End...it's only a The End for my Deviantart account. I will not delete it, but I will be not here anymore.

If you are still interested in my Art you can watch my Instagram Account SafDragon1

Well guys...this is goodbye from Deviantart...and from an Era...I hope the new year will bring me some Changes 😊 have a good life...

Farewell

SafDragon1